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So I got my Soul of Chogokin Eva Unit 04 a few days ago, and since the weather was finally clear I took it out for a few photos! This thing is so much fun to play with!




( In the name of god, still my beating heart )


I'm not happy today but I don't want to talk about it. Just wanted to share some cool pictures.

Well still nothing exciting to report on the home front. Been sewing alot again lately, feel a good stint coming on. Have a wedding dress to make for someone, and a wardrobe make up over for another friend, and of course, spring clothes for myself and the website.
Things have really settled in around here. It's weird how fast it happened, we moved into the house and now it's like we've lived here forever. It weird to think about what the house will look like in five years, or even the thought of still living on this same plot kinda freaks me out still, but day by day I get used to it.
I am going a little stir crazy though, I want to go on another adventure. I really want to go to Colorodo and Visit my sister, My boy Timmins, and Dro my awesome roommate from DC. There are extenuating circumstances keeping me from going right now, but when the time is right things will pan out I hope.
Pinballz is hiring, so I put in an application. I really really hope I get the job. I mean it's only part time at min wage, but I only need it so I can buy more fabric and figures and I want a job that's fun, and what could be more fun that working at an arcade! ^^ I could wear the cutest outfits to work everyday! Vacuuming, and cleaning the glass on the pinball tables, and listening to the sounds of tokens filling up the change machine. Ahhhh. It wouldn't be like cleaning a store front, it would be like purify an alter so worshipers may came and bask in the holyness that is the arcade machines! LOL Than would make me the beautiful and buxom middle aged priestess if I got hired I guess LOL

Eno came over today and we watched a bunch of Daria. Man it was like being in 7th grade all over again. Back in Seattle wearing flannel shirts and jnco shorts and my docs. yeah. Eno said I'm the Jane to her Daria, which is pretty awesome if you ask me. I'm glad I'm someone's Jane LOL. I think we may jokingly (or seriously I dunno lol) may cosplay as them even just for a fun photoshoot LOL. It was awesome, several times we found ourselves wondering (in regards to Quinn and her friends) if that's what 'normal' girls where really like in high school? Or heaven forbid, still today? I shutter to think what coud have become of me had I not been a nerd!! Bring popular seems like so much work! LOL

Start to get plans rolling on the wedding! I'm really excited, I think I'm going to go ahead and make my own dress as well. I really feel that confident in my abilities these days. On that note would I look good in baby pink or should I stick to red for my dress? Or heaven forbid should I wear white?!

I use the icon with Irony as I have quit smoking, and it makes me sad but I don't like cancer.

Well it's off to a book for me, and then into the velvet darkness of narcotics. Doing drugs is so much better when their prescription.

May Shai'hulud clear the sands before you

me



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Last night I was at Qua with Eno for a 'trunk show', tho I'm not entirely sure what a trunk show truly is because this was a bit absurd. First let me say the club is probably the most beautiful club I have ever seen- not the kind of place where someone like me wants to hang out. Everyone in the same stupid shoes and dresses, with bleach blond hair and to much make up. It makes me kinda wanna gag. I was there to mingle and talk to people about my clothing. But it turned out that pretty much everyone just scoffed at me and Eno and our wild style. It a fact, high school never dose end. It's the same bimbos from high school that are adult bimbo's now. I don't understand people sometimes. What makes them think their better than me? I crafted ever piece of clothing I was wearing, they reflecting WHO I AM, because I designed them for me. All their clothes say about them is they either have to much money, or they have no personality. perhaps a little bit of both. Any one can keep up with the latest fashions, but it's hard to have True style. I dunno I'm just ranting, but I know most of my friends have felt the same thing. They treat us like lesser people because we wear black and spikes, and boots, and fuzzy hats. We're still people, under the the fabric, we're all nekkid, we're all human.

I love clothes, I really do, but I love clothes with Style, with a totally unique flair and innovative designs. I'm not just a punk kid, I've been a lolita, a goth, I've been trendy, I've worn jncos and Docs, and leggings, and stilettos. But no matter what I wear, people can always tell I'm different. I'm always me.

This is just a rant about clothes and I really don't know where it's going. LOL.

Ignore the stupid video, love the song!!

Today Is our Eva sleep over! i'm so excited, it's been soooo long since I've marathon-ed the entire series in one sitting. Last time was when i was in tech school and victor dumped me, I went out and bought the whole series and all the extra crap (directors cuts, movies) and spent two days holed up on the couch in the day room watching it with a laundry basket full of junk food and about ten boxes of tissues. Many of my friend came to join me through out the weekend, and anyone who bitched at me to get off the only TV in the whole building was met by the snarling faces of my friends, and the puffy eyes of crying me. It was how i coped, when the series ended, and the world kept on turning I knew life had to go on. In my own way i was Shinji at that moment, and wanted to run away from everything. But then, just as he did, I remember that life if more precious than the pain it causes, and running away fixes nothing. Ahhh those where the days. This is not a depressed rant mind you, just remembering that weekend, and all the things this Series has taught me, gotten me through, and helped me over come. It's with out a doubt one of my top 3 anime, right there with video Girl Ai and Giant robo. (closely followed by Green Legend ran, Escaflone, and Aquarion)

I dont dream very often, mostly because it usually take alot of drugs to put me down, and therefore i don't dream, or at least don't remember them. Last night I slept naturally, though it was short I had a really weird dream. I was rejoining the military, only instead of the air force i was joining the marines. It was really scary and weird because there was no training for me, they just handed me a gun and said 'go fight that sea monster' and then the cloud rolled in and it started to storm and a huge hydra came out of the ocean and wanted to eat me. I asked for a sword but they said 'real marines use guns! gogogogo!" Which I though was bullshit, you can't kill a hydra with a gun! So basically I told them to fuck off and tried to leave, but the storm was like causing chaos everywhere, and i ended up helping a bunch of noobs escape the carnage.
weeiiirrrdddd.

Anyways gotta do the dishes.

whatever
<3me

*le sigh* seems like all my personal friendships have gone to shit lately. I feel like my talents are completely unappreciated and unseen. I've fallen into this rut, I dunno how to get out of it. argggg.
Lots of good things are happening too, but, idk, im back in my 'no body loves me' state of mind. It will pass, I know, it always done. QQ more, I know.
Went to comic con on Saturday, it was pretty cool. Got to meet ray park and hear all about the King of fighter's movie, and Why it sucked so hard. It made me feel alot better about the movie hearing it from the horses mouth. LOL. Apparently he had recently gotten in trouble with producers for saying bad things about the movie at a convention. The poor guy, just wanted to get paid. THAT I understand, god knows I've done projects I thought there lame cuze i needed the money. So I guess, I'll let this one slide, since he was SO FRIKKEN amazing as Toad and Darth Maul. Ray park was the only thing that make The Phantom Menace a decent film. Honestly I didn't hate the movie as much as everyone else did, I thought it was ya know, a star wars film, it followed the basic formula that A new Hope did. On that note I think I may watch it tonight whist I sew.
Evangelion sleep over tomorrow, I'm REALLY looking forward to it honestly. Eno, Kara and Viki are coming. I hope i can talk them all into Eva cosplay for Ikkicon.
this weekend is Ren Faire, the highest point of my whole year. Me and eric's anniversary. yeahhh. Just gotta finish the costumes, which is what i should be doing right now, but i'm procrastinating.
Dyed my hair back to black, it feel good to be me again. the blonde was awful, the blue didn't stick, and it was to hard to try and get the root bleached when they needed it. So I'm back in black and that cool, not I just need a hair cut to and get it put back into shape, and I can leave this whole chapter behind me.
Fall is here, and i think this may be part of my darkened spirits. The summer festival season is over, so is wedding season, and Halloween, so no one needs me to sew for them.
Christmas is right around the corner, but that just going to suck since my parents are coming to visit, something I am NOT looking forward to. My father has never come to my home since i left home when i was 17. I like it that way. we love each other from a far and never have to get to close. I don't want him in my personal life, and I don't think he much wants me in his. and that's cool. I love him, like alot, but that dosen't mean i want him all up in my business all the time. But he needed to meet Eric and junk, ya know, since were getting married. *le sigh* What can I do ya know?

I guess that enough rambling for now,
Much love and aloha
me


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Man, I am so stirred. I spent so much of the last month hunched over my sewing machine it's a bit absurd. I missed out on all kinds of great events and parties. This is partially due to the fact i have to share my car, so i never have it when i actually i need it, and partially because, as I said, I've been working my fingers down to little nubs.
I feel like a worn out hollow shell, all the fire that i put into my work had left me this way, with nothing left to burn. I'm so tried, all I want to do is sleep, and read and write if I can. Uhhhhh, I know after a few days I'll be alright again and I can get back to work, but this is something I'm not sure I've felt before. With my sewing it's always been for fun, or for a particular event, but this month it's just been one after another after another, which i guess is simply part of doing it for a living. I love what I do, but I guess I have to remember I can only give so much to my work before I start giving away the vital pieces of myself and my sanity.
I can't try and fix everyone else problems all the time, I can't try and be the heroine for everyone, no matter how much i want to. I'm just a human with a sewing machine, not superman. It seems silly, but prehaps it's something i need to remind myself of now and again.

Gunna work on a few fun projects tonight, mostly painting. I got a cork board at the thrift store and I want to paint some wise words of wisdom upon it. I plan to hang my designs on it while I work so at first I thought to put 'make it work' on it, but that's soooo overdone. I wanted it to mean something to me. So I think it should read: "Better to be a 'Has been', than a 'Never was' " Not that I think anyone would remember that line from the movie it's from so it might sound wiser than it is. Lately I've had to come face to face with the reality that I'm not 19 anymore. I've been replaced as the hottest girl in the room by the younger, sexier generation. But It's ok, I'd rather be a has been, than to have never done the things I've done at all. I'm still hot, yes, and im not that old, no. But, I'm not Eris, and god DAMN is she the hottest little thing in this whole damn town, and sweet as shit too. If she's replacing me, than I'm glad for it. hahahah.

Anyways enough ranting, gotta finish eric's dinner and then settle in for some Shadow of the Hedgemon.

I think, dispite the amazing weekend I had last week, I'm starting to get a bit burnt out with all this sewing work. Everything piece is amazing, yes, and a creative work of art but I'm starting to feel a bit burnt out. But i guess this is one of the many hurdles I must overcome if I want to do this for a living. Eventually it's going to get a little boring, but that doesn't make it bad. i need to stop taking on more jobs than i can handle or at least, try and plan things out a little better like a real job instead of just letting it eat my whole life. hahah.
I took a long bath last night, I think it was the first time I've done it in this new house with my giant-ly huge bathtub. Winters coming and my skin always gets so dry, so I took an oatmeal bath and it was good. Sat in there for like 2 hours and finished my book. Misato was right about baths, i got out feeling alot better, and put in a few more hours of sewing and house work afterwards. It's the little things I guess. ^^
I finished Ender's Shadow in like a week and like wow..

**SPOILERSSSSSS!!!**

It was really really heart wrenching, having read the original Ender's Game, and seeing the devotion and near-love Bean had for Ender, and to know that Bean himself was alot less important to Ender than Ender was to Bean. Poor Bean went through so much shit, and it was actually fun to be inside the head of someone to calculating and smart. He was much smarter than Ender, but still suffered from the Card school of 'I think it therefore it must be true' but I think maybe it's because I keep forgetting these aren't regular kids, and they don't grow up to be regular people. They're SUPER geniuses. Which sounds a bit out there, but then Americans are pretty stuff and I'm not sure I could comprehend being THAT smart. It was great to see Ender's Game from the other side of the story (hell bean ever says 'This is Ender's Game' Lawl, love it when someone calls the title of the story they are in haha) As there is a ten year gap in the time ender's game was written to the time Ender's Shadow was written you can really appreciate how much Card changed as a writer during that time. Now yeah, i know what you're going to say (hedge) you dislike his political blahblahblah hes to mormon or whatever, but I think this one was really the best I've read from him so fun. With the right of Ender's Game on your back this story was painful, tear jerking, and triumphant. Everything ends well (for now) for Bean which i didn't expect- and yet that was prehaps the most 'are you serious? :/' twist of the whole book. A bit to coincidental, but with out Nikolai being his brother there would have been no light at the end of the Tunnel. What would he have done other wise? Gone home with Graff? Where that would have been kind of cool to see I don't really see Card wanting to write THAT story LOL. I already started the next one, but stopped after a few pages, wanting to marinade in the revelations and emotions of the end of Ender's Shadow.

**END SPOILERS**

So yeah, if you've read Ender's game, go read Ender's Shadow. If you haven't read either, go get your self a copy! Card is amazing, prehaps he's not Frank Herbert, but he's deff Sharon Shinn, and prehaps just above Gaimen and certinally better than George lucas. Ender's Game should have been Star Wars. But they'll not make a movie for a long time I'm sure, it would be to hard to get that many child actors to do such a heavy story. Maybe someday They will CG the whole things, but I hope they don't. I hope it never get corrupted by hollywood. (though the comics are beautiful and stupid and make no sense if you haven't read the books)
So go!! READ!! LEARN!! GOGOGOG!!

I guess that's all for now I have to get to work on sewing stuff now that I've had my coffee.

don't forget amazing Halloween party at my house Sunday night, be there to be a big frikken looser!
Let's do it for Dirk <3 Cuze he would have, and now he's gone. Gotta keep that amazing spirit i had the good graces of learning from about alive, even though his body is gone, he will always live on in our drunken hearts.

Man, things have just been flying past me at night speed lately. 0_0
Had an amazing photoshoot yesterday, and have a fashion show tomorrow! Seems like there is just no stopping this train chop full of seamstressing power! LOL

Check here --->
http://www.flickr.com/photos/21063883@N08/sets/72157625062301159/
for one of photographers photos from the shoot <3 <3



We had two more photographers we are waiting pictures from! Their amazing! <3 <3

Will have many more pictures and info on the shoot, as well as tomorrow's fashion show to share over @ plaid_boots  

Personally, my personal life has been pushed to the the way side in favor of sewing my butt off LOL Not much to tell about anything else lately. LOL. I'm tried but full of determination to get this whole mess done! There can be no stopping me, when i refused to be stopped!! This is what I love, and I'm not going to give it up, not when success is so close I can nearly taste it! <3

Otherwise everything is quiet on the eastern front, nothing of interest to report. I need to go call my dad, LOL.

Much love and Aloha
me